Friday, May 11, 2012

A Beautiful Mess


Hello there. Kathryn here.

It's almost Mother's Day, so I figure now is as good a time as any to share this little trinket I picked up shortly after my mother passed away last November...

I guess you could say I was inspired by the locket my dad showed me. I wanted a locket of my own, to carry around a photo of my mama. At first I was a little taken aback by how big the "Beautiful Mess" locket actually is (2 inches wide and 2.5 inches long), but I actually grew to like it...

...especially since I can tuck a good-sized photo of me and my mommy inside.

This probably sounds kind of weird, but I think the name of the locket made me want to buy it that much more. And at the risk of sounding really emo, I feel like it's kind of an apt description for how I feel at the moment about life, the universe and everything.

I suppose everybody copes in different ways. I've heard it said that there's beauty in sadness.

In closing, I thought I'd share this little snippet I managed to capture with my iPhone last year. I was always amazed at how, even as my mother's condition worsened, she somehow managed to hold onto the ability to say, "I love you" (or something close to it). This was one of the last things she said to me before she stopped talking completely last July.

(apologies for the sound of my obnoxious voice)

Love is a powerful thing, eh?

Happy Mother's Day to you all. Thanks so much for reading.



  1. What a dedicated loving daughter you are -- and what a special mother your mother must have been for you to be that way. My grandfather had Alzheimer's, and I know what a difficult, long road that is. I have never seen anyone make it through with as positive an attitude as you have shown.

    I once read a poem about joy and grief always coming as a pair -- perhaps the "beauty in sadness" is that the intensity of your sadness now is a reflection of your very loving relationship with your mother. You and your mother were both so lucky to have each other.

  2. The first Mothers Day after my Mom passed was the worst for me, 12 years ago. My mother had Alzheimer's as well as some lung issues that could not be remediated, so prognosis was negative either way. This year is markedly better.

    I'm sure your friends and family are comforting you today, as well as the warm memories of your relationship with your Mom. :)

  3. Love is a powerful thing-- and a beautiful one. Thank you for sharing your wonderful mother and her strong mother's love! This is a clip to treasure.
    This was my 13th Mother's Day without my mother. I keep "I love you" post-it notes she wrote to me in a special spot, and even the ones when she could only write X's and O's make me feel her love.
    Our mothers' love endures and lives on in us. Peace and more love to you!